Remember that scene from Star Wars where Obi Wan Kenobi suddenly stands still after the destruction of Alderaan and says “ As if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror, and were suddenly silenced” ? While this is of course a very dramatic moment, and comes nowhere close to something I would compare to this blog, it’s been a long time since my voice was heard here. When I wrote my Finding Balance….. post way back in November, I didn’t realise that things would turn into pretty much a complete absence on my part. A lot has happened since then, and even though I popped up every once in a while the last few months, I can honestly say that I was (and still am) pretty much out of the wonderful world of WordPress. So…with this my first post since almost two months, does this mean things are going to be changing? Erm….well….yes and no. But let’s first adress what’s going on with me, until I get to the blog itself.
One of the main reasons I have been away from here so long is my health. I have been extremely tired, but more annoying is my stomache that has been causing me all sorts of problems for over 4 months now. I have had an enormous amount of tests, one of them being a stomache examination that felt like a new type of torture, and so far all of them haven’t yielded any results. Walking around with pain for such a long time, and not really knowing what’s going on, is becoming pretty frustrating. On top of that, as some of you know, my father had an operation last year to his back. Unfortunately, that operation didn’t go quite as planned, and he is in extreme pain every day now. Where my pain is at least manageable and on some days not really there, my father’s isn’t. He is currently awaiting a scan, and until that time is on pain medication (which unfortunately doesn’t really relieves his pain). So…the short summary of this is that things have been pretty FUBAR the past few weeks. (Just google FUBAR if you don’t know what that acronym stands for lol).
I’m an optimistic guy and I always try to stay as positive as I can about things, but I have to admit that it’s been hard lately trying to keep feeling like that. It’s been four months now, since this whole thing started, and I’m still not any closer to finding out what’s wrong. And I feel even worse for my dad. But there are bright notes as well, and one of them has been the overwhelming amount of support I have been getting from all of you. So many people have sent me a message on either twitter, or email, or through the blog, checking in on how I am doing or lending moral support. You don’t know even know how much that has meant to me. It never failed to put a smile on my face, especially as luck would sometimes have it, on days that I really needed it. So seriously thank you so much for that. I don’t even know how I will ever be able to repay you all, but I will think of something. A Lannister always pays his debts…..erm…whoops, sorry I guess I am already getting excited for that final season of Game of Thrones.
One question that might also be on your minds is, what has this guy been up to the past few months. Honestly less than you might think. One thing that I have really been out of touch with is anime. Yes, I know, how on Earth could I do something like that right? Good question, and one for which I unfortunately don’t have an answer. But, a new season of anime is luckily right around the corner, so hopefully I will be able to pick up a few shows (preferably good ones) and get back into that fantastic medium again. Netflix has been kind of my to go to place lately. I have watched a lot of shows on that, including a lot of movies. Some were good, some were mediocre, and some were just downright bad. But it’s been nice to just turn off your brain, especially on bad days, and just watch something on Netflix hoping to discover a hidden gem. Another thing I have been doing is reading a lot. With a library of books and comics that I probably will never complete in my lifetime, it was nice to read some things that had been gathering dust on my shelves for years.
And now of course one question remains unanswered: what about my blog? This being an update post, and still not a “real” post so to speak, one has to wonder if I will ever get back to writing about what I started this blog for in the first place. In a round about way that brings me back to the first paragraph of this post: yes and no. With my health still being what it is, I just can’t go back to blogging in the capacity that I did before I left on my hiatus. I loved bloghopping, leaving comments all over the place, and writing posts of my own two to three times a week. That being said, I do miss blogging. I miss the interaction with everyone, reading posts and commenting on them, and sharing my own thoughts on things that I have watched or read myself. So in that regard I want to try and release a new post at least once a week. And by post I mean a real post, either a review, or some of the other things that I used to write about on this blog. I don’t want to make promises that I can’t keep, so that is why I added the word: try. I also want to try and check out at least once or twice a week posts that you wrote, as I have been completely missing in action from WordPress. Again no promises on that, as it all depends on what kind of mood my stomache is in.
Well, if you made it to the end of this post, I guess I did manage to keep your attention and didn’t bore you to death: phew, breathes sigh of relief. After all this talking about myself, I’m also interested to know how you are doing! Leave a comment and let me know. If you wrote a post that you have been proud of, and want me to know about, let me know that too, and I will see if I can find some time to check that out. And of course any recommendations for new shows, movies, anime, books and stuff like that are also welcome. For now, this is me signing off and wishing you all a great weekend. But not before saying one more time how grateful I am to be a part of this community. If you are new to blogging, and are maybe still doubting if you should sometimes comment on posts, leave those doubts behind. Take it from me, you will meet some wonderful people here, that will turn into real friends. And that in short, is what life is all about, and turns it bright even in darker times….